whoaaa, it's been awhile since i've written anything. well, update time! lets see, i spent 4th of july with family instead of the usual friends. it was a pretty nice change of pace seeing as how i never spend anytime with my family. i even met my brother-in-law's nephew who had just came over to the states from vietnam and he's going to sac state currently. i was very impressed cause shit, i'm not even at sac state yet D:. i think he's gay haha, but moving on. then josh, royce, and i went to the san francisco zoo. of course i had hella fun. i've been wanting to go there for ages, but it never falls through and i finally got to go :D. it was worth it, saw a bunch of critters and took a bunch of pictures. definitely a day to remember and next up is the monterey bay aquarium. hopefully before summer ends cause school starts in like 2 weeks.

things have been slow after that. i've been kind of emo the past few weeks. whenever i'm emo, it's usually about a boy. i tell myself to not let it get to me, and it usually works but this time was different. i've been talking to this guy for..i'd say a couple of months now and he's got me hooked. granted we haven't even met yet, yea i met him online..get over it, i already know he's a great guy. he has everything going for him..like everything, a career, a house, a good head on his shoulders, and a damn nice body haha. i seriously feel like i'm not good enough for him because he's so successful. i just found out today he went to school at cal poly pomona for his undergrad; then transfered to berkeley for his masters in engineering. damn right? and he's only 24! turning 25. tragedy hit his family and he's going through a rough time and i started becoming selfish and wanted him to give me the affection and attention when i should be there for him. i realized that before i can be anything else to him, the first thing i should be is a good friend and help him through this ordeal. i like him, and i'm going to hold on and see where it takes me. i miss him, his voice, even his horniness haha. all this, and i still haven't met him in person. i wonder what that day's going to be like.

then there's other people's drama that's been going on. i got dragged into it cause people like to come to me to talk and vent and tell me things i really shouldn't know. but it's also my fault because i ask about what's going on. i like that people can come to me for advice and a shoulder to lean on. another person has been on my mind a lot too. this person's stupid. this person seriously needs to grow up and PRIORITIZE about what's REALLY important. i tried being a good friend and push him, but he definitely isn't taking it seriously. hey, i tried, but it doesn't really matter now anyways. then there's daisy you crazy bitch haha. that's all i gotta say.

things are looking up. tomorrow i'm headed off to LA with elaine to visit holly. nasirah was suppose to come, but due to some problems, she isn't able to go and i'm very sad about that, but still excited to see the lovely holly. i'm in need of this vacay to just get away from sacramento for half a week. i can't wait.

also, my birthday's coming up on august 23rd, and so are a few other people. brian ines is this friday, then it's joanna's on the 21st, crystal's on the 22nd, then mine and cindy's on the 23rd. oh! and shelly's is on the 23rd too haha. happy birthday to all you bitches :D i don't have anything planned at all and i don't know what to do. i'm turning 21 and i am excited, but i'm gonna end up spending it by myself if i don't plan something soon.

that's it for the update. time for bed. dennis is on the phone sleeping <3. i'm going to be gay and pretend to cuddle with him. hopefully i can see him soon and do it in person.

oh yea, i really hate the word stog. like forreals, it's a cigarette, so call it a damn cigarette. you're not sounding cool if you say stog and if people say that in front of me, i'm just going to slap them across the face and be like "bitch! it's a damn cigarette." smoking's gay, don't do it. seriously.

goodnight! :D